you know, I've always wanted to be an inanimate object
just there, no action until someone decides to use me
no element of performance
no sense of individuality that I have to craft
I only serve one function
and if I don’t do it right,
I’m broken, not unwilling
I’m just a damaged good
if I was merely property
I wouldn’t have to be answerable to anybody
in fact people would make decisions for me
fuck, where do i put this thing?
how should i present it
to look as valuable and as appealing as possible
so that one day i may trick
some goon into buying it from me
taking it off my hands
and making me a pretty penny?
see, I don’t even have to do my own marketing
if I was only an item
there would not be any emotions
weighing me down
there is no noise I have to make to be understood
there is nothing to understand
I’m just there
I do one thing and someone does it to me
there is no need for me to have a desire to be used, it’s just a matter of convenience
and then I take a look at my life
half laughing at how the universe uses me as an instrument of its will
or how easily the other half of the population speaks for me
and maybe my dreams of being an inanimate object had been fulfilled the day I was born
congratulations, it’s a girl.